mother's day

it is sunday again... amazing what one week will bring... on wednesday we went to the neighbors to play in their yard and had a wonderful time! so much better then at the park! (we live in apartments with no yard or anything (bad choice for people with kids i know))...the next day asher was sick and kept us up all night... the next night i was sick and kept myself up all night (josh took care of both asher and i both nights)... today, i have finally been able to keep food down! watermelon is an amazing fruit for a sick belly... it is the fruit that helped me most during my pregnancies...

earlier i watched a video about a mother who got burned in an airplane accident... her face was disfigured and scared and she talked about missing the other person she had been (she was a very beautiful woman)... she talked about the pain she suffered and how hard it was to come out of the comma and how hard it was to be seen in public... but she felt blessed and she felt life had a purpose... her greatest purpose being a mother... she felt it was a privilege to be a mother ... an honor to teach the children that God had given to her care...

with those few word my heart was struck... i thought of my own beautiful children and the struggles i face on a day to day basis... the frustration that my dishes never seem to be done... my house frequently a mess... no matter how hard i try to keep up there always seems to be one thing more... and those are just little things... little things that block my view to what is really important... my children... my sweet, sweet children... i love them... i love that both my boys are gentle and loving... both seem to know how to use their voices and say what they want (some day they will learn to say please first :)... i love how intelligent and creative they both are... sometimes they just blow my mind away with the things they say (ok... what asher says... isaac doesn't say words yet... but he does speak his mind :)...occasionally, i am frightened by the intelligence my children posses... will we be able to keep up with them in their teenage years? what i love best about them though is a feeling... a feeling that i don't really know them... that underneath, hidden from view... is a reservoir of light and beauty... strength, courage and intelligence... just as you know a rose seed will grow into something beautiful... you know that your children are full of the same sort of powerful potential... something you cannot see but feel inside your heart...

i am a blessed mom and wife